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Whtever Sorry 4 the bad reads below guys..nobody wants to comment I guess, Hey can’t you at least type 2 lines guys, at least to keep my heart..Bohooohoo. N Kamlesh!!!! Where the hell are you, playing Richard? Don’t tell me you didn’t have time. You not commenting is ‘Etu Brute” or Kamleshe’ for me. Can’t you at least write “This sucks”? N all the rest, what ’s with you, You know I am nuts sayin I don’t care even if no one comments , love of writing bla bla. Come on don’t you know ” It is good to give when asked but better when given unasked… I’m loudly thinking of turning it private..and Hysh maybe we should start on that new blog..issues stuff..and as of now feeling down and low…the impact of a blow slowly being felt and my feelings are best expressed in this Book “The Reader” by Bernhard Schlink. It is a must read guys, originally written in German translated in English by Carol Brown Janeway. After reading it I seriously wanted to learn German. Now if the translation is so expressive wonder what the original must be. It is a story based on Post-World War Germany, a love story between a fifteen-year-old boy and Thirty-four year old woman. Unusual isn’t it? I read it exactly one year ago. The book helped me outgrow all the earlier notions of love, relationships and a lot more, mind opening ceremony. Most of all found it so close to me that was wondering if Schlink was thinking of me when he made the character Michael Berg. The Evening Standard wrote: For generations to come, people will be reading and marveling over Bernhard Schlink’s “The Reader”. Anyways for now go through these dialogues:

Does everyone feel this way? When I was young, I was perpetually overconfident or insecure. Either I felt completely useless, unattractive, and worthless, or that I was pretty much a success, and everything I did was bound to succeed. When I was confident, I could overcome the hardest challenges. But all it took was the smallest setback, for me to be sure that I was utterly worthless. Regaining my self-confidence had nothing to do with success; every goal I set myself, every recognition I craved made anything I actually seem paltry by comparison and whether I experienced it as a failure or triumph was utterly dependent on my mood.

In every part of my life, too, I stood outside myself and watched; I saw myself functioning at the university, with my parents and brother and sisters and my friends, but inwardly I felt no involvement. I sat at the window, surrounded by ever-changing passengers, conversations, smells. Outside, houses passed by, and roads, cars, trees, distant mountains, castles and quarries. I took it all in and felt nothing.

She looked ahead and through everything. A proud wounded, lost, and infinitely tired look. A look that wished to see nothing and no one.

There’s no need to talk, because the truth of what one says lies in what one does.

Now some from Alice Hoffman’s Here on Earth. Another must read, it is in Oprah’s Book Club too. On its cover is a comment, which goes: The Horse Whisperer meets Wuthering Heights. So what are you waitin for, read it!

She’s not going back to where she was a major nothing, inside and out. Gwen feels good just being around him (a horse), and this is not the way she ordinarily feels when confronted with human life forms.

There is no measuring love, other than all or nothing or that space in between. (I just love this dialogue)

It’s not the lie that’s the problem: it’s the distance the lie forges between you.

History is personal. All you are seeing is what’s before you, the rest is guesswork.

And if I were to sing my emotions it would surely be this:

SANTANA LYRICS

“Just Feel Better”
(feat. Steven Tyler)

She said I feel stranded
And I can’t tell anymore
If we coming or I’m going
It’s not how I planed it
I’ve got a key to the door
But it just won’t open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don’t, I don’t, I don’t
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time

I’m gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can’t see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can’t find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I’m a little far from the shore
And I’m afraid of sinking
You’re the only one who knows me
And who doesn’t ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have it seasons
Round and round it goes
And every day’s the one before
But this time, this time

I’m gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can’t see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can’t find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It’s really getting old
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah
[Guitar solo]

I’m gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can’t see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can’t find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better