Just another blog entry

The room is neat except for the table. Its crammed with Boost, a digital camera, a bottle, one torch, one pencil sharpener, A Thousand Splendid Suns, Cadbury Nutties, a cap, two pen holders and newspapers. I just replayed the song “Closer” in my new cell phone ( I plan to write an entry for the dependable old one). Lately I’ve only been listening to songs chosen or mailed to me like this one. It is a song by Travis from their album with an interesting name “ A Boy with No Name” which for no reason reminds me of Kamlesh ( Where are You Now??). And I’ve been enjoying this experience. I replayed the song. I am hearing it for the third time in a row. There’s a reason for it. My new Samsung Cell Phone only has one song in it and I can’t play songs in this laptop as my Ubuntu problems are yet to be solved……lean on me now..lean on me now.…the music goes on….I already know that I will listen to it for the fourth time as well!

Everyone else is busy making Momos for dinner. And I am alone in my room typing in this computer, a perfect living example of “ Swade jibro, alchi tigro”. Shamelessly, day in and day out I live on without learning how to cook or work for that matter. Nevertheless, I’m the sweeper of the house. Its my new job. And I’m always telling myself “the house doesn’t maintain itself, you have to maintain it”while I am doing my job. I feel better doing menial jobs, no need to think, just take a broom and sweep. What a nice break from the so called ‘Changing’ the scene sort of things. I work because that is what I am supposed to do. I have no passion, no drive, no impulse nor any ideas lately ( actually its always been this way).

“ I’ve had enough of this parade… I’m thinking of words to say..” The song which is being played for the 6th time in a row, just says it all. The dispassionate person I am, somebody’s words are repeatedly making me think too. “ You don’t think of people other than when you meet them”. The first thing that struck me listening to it was, “Who thinks of people when they are actually meeting them?” So, the sentence sounded utterly foolish to me. Now that I keep wondering what the words actually meant, it doesn’t. And all of a sudden I don’t want to think of it now. I just want to close my eyes and listen to the song for the 7/8th time……………and not think of people once again…( not that I ever do that according to the statement) ha ha ha …some things, some people never change …… And maybe its better that way when you think of the percentage of thoughts that actually materialize into actions, hoina ta?

I am listening to the song for the 12th time now. Addicted.