The Fool

I sat down to write something sensible yesterday. I couldn’t. It made some sense but it was clichéd crap. Words like ‘Though’, ‘But’, ‘ And’ repeated themselves so many times that I had to stop before I thought I could publish that ’sin’ of mine. I believe in what a writer once said, everyone has the freedom to write whatsoever one wishes to but one shouldn’t publish all crap that has been written. Though blogs and personal diaries can be filled with them! Clarity has never been my cup of tea either so let me jot down some messy thoughts of mine and experience a bit of freedom. I’ll begin with you. Not YOU if you are thinking it could be on YOU, but you.

Yes you who lied. The world is filled with liars so a lot of people out there could be on their guards after reading ‘who lied’. Chill guys, its surely not you. What’s it with you dude? I mean the charm and grace and most importantly ‘confidence’ with which you lied. I know ‘lie’ is a harsh or rather a very blunt term but that’s what you did. You lied .Plain and simple as that. Do you know that it’s not just ‘It’ but IT for me or for hundreds out there who don’t walk out with politicians, connections and a thick wad of cash in their pockets? Do you have any idea what a perfect fool you’ve made out of me here? Of course the fault is mine. But you are my friend dude, how could I not trust you when you are being so damn sure of everything? Anyways bottom line is you lied and said a hundred of things you didn’t mean and no one was forcing you to say them. You needn’t have said ‘Us’. You could have just said ‘this’ and ‘that’ without personalizing anything. So they are included in the list of lies as well. Thankfully I didn’t start dreaming of ‘us’ doing ‘this’ and ‘that’! Do you think I will ever trust anything you say after this? Well, the answer just in case you thought I would ‘fabricate’ something nice for your ears too is ABSOLUTELY NOT.

And that felt good. Do you hear me? It felt absolutely great. People keep fooling me now and then with their lies. What am I to do? I can’t know it’s a lie until it’s proved to be a lie. Still that doesn’t mean I tolerate being lied to. A liar is equal to a Nazi, Idi Amin, Rasputin and all those despiteful people who scared me as a child and worse. I don’t want to elaborate on ‘worse’. I am not scared of liars but I simply hate people who lie and no thanks to you for making these ‘Hate’ sentiments resurface again. I don’t think Anne Frank would have ever written “….Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart” had she lived longer! At that age, we all believe that and some fools like me still believe that, irrespective of bad experiences and then it happens again. Dang! Reality Bites!

What next? Nothing. I might label your emails ‘Inscrutable Mind’ or something, wonder what makes you say all that you say or do and observe your activities in awe thinking to myself ” Oh! What colourful people one comes across in life if only you make it to two decades plus of your existence?” with the hope that ‘I won’t be fooled’ again!

P.S I’d thought I would only be starting with You. Seems like I’ll just ended this entry with you too. Gee Thanks for inspiring an entry!

To be, or not to be? That is the question—
Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And, by opposing, end them?

-Shakespeare In Hamlet